Progress

I had a really tough day on Saturday. Saturday was my monitoring appointment and I went in with my injection hoping that I would have the injection that day and then the IUI on Monday (today). I had taken today off of work for the IUI and everything. This should teach me to make my own plans... Come to find out that on Saturday my follicles were not large enough. They need to be about 20 mm and the two largest I had were at 13 and 9. I was beyond disappointed. Even though my doctor didn't seem too concerned, I felt awful about it. It brought a lot of doubts into my mind and I wondered what the heck I was doing. All of this fertility treatment was making me a bit nutso at this point. So Saturday was awful. Sunday on the other hand was just what I needed to turn me around. Shawn and I slept over at our friends house after a 1st Century Church night on Saturday evening (that I just about cried right through) and went to their church on Sunday. The Saturday event and Sunday spent with great friends really was just what I needed and I felt comforted and at ease about going forward and I think even a little better off knowing that I need to get my hands off of everything that is going on because my trying to control the situation is not going to help at all and is just going to make me anxious and unhappy. So for now I am just trying to let go a little. I went in again this morning for monitoring and the one follicle that was at 13 was now at 18 and the Dr. gave the ok for the injection.



Not today at the office but tomorrow, at home. My new nurse (the one I originally had is now on maternity leave) showed me how to give myself the injection and gave me appointments for my IUI appointments (yes, there are now two) for Wednesday and Thursday. Each of those days my hubby will have to bring in a "sample" at 6:45am and then I will go at 8:15 for the IUI and then I guess I'll just go off to work. Then on monday I will go in to the office for bloodwork so they can check my hormone levels and prescribe any medications that I need until my pregnancy test on September 2nd. I am feeling so much better today about all of this than I was on Saturday (I was really a big mess). The only thing I am a little nervous about is the injection tomorrow. I have always been a big baby when it comes to needles. I have gotten much better since being at the fertility center (since I have to get my blood drawn just about every week) but I used to cry and cry and cry - even in the doctors office. I want the injection for what it should do but I am pretty terrified about doing it to myself. My nurse said that if i need to I can stop by the office and they can give it to me but I am really thinking that I need to do it myself. It all seems pretty easy to do since it is a pre-filled injection but still. I'm nervous, but very excited for what is to come!