I am realizing that there is a whole lot of waiting that has to go on with infertility treatments. Even before the two week wait you have to wait for your follicles to grow and wait for them to be developed enough to trigger. I am not a very patient person. Waiting is hard.
I have been trying to stay busy while I wait for my next appointment on Saturday and have been trying to schedule distractions as well. This has not been easy.
I find that the hardest time to stay distracted is while I am at work. I am not exactly sure why this is since most people I know say they are most distracted from IF while they are busy at work. Whatever the reason, being at work is a difficult time for me. At least when I am at home I can take my mind off of things by watching a show or doing housework. At work my mind seems to wander and worry and go to bad places.
I am sitting in on a class with my hubby this semester which is something I am excited about. The class is called Perspectives in Mission. The first class was Tuesday night and so far so good. There is a lot of reading though, way more than undergraduate and I am only trying to do the work for one class - I have no idea how my hubby does it for 5. Hopefully homework will take up a good chunk of my time and another bonus is the time spent with Shawn and getting to do something like this together.
We have plans to go apple picking in upstate NY this Saturday, a 2-day concert the next weekend and another 1st Century Church gathering at our home the weekend after that. I should find out the results of this cycle the week following that last planned weekend. But like I said earlier, the weekends and time at home I can deal with, it is the time spent at work that has been the hardest for me so far.
I'm wondering when this roller coaster of emotions will be over? Hopefully soon!
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